The only constant in life is change.

I thought I’ve mentally steeled myself for the eventual break-up, but I still felt the pain like a dagger through the heart. No amount of preparation will ever help soften the blow of losing the one you love and consider yours to someone else.

But it gets worse.

The dagger is going to twist and embed itself further in your heart every time you see them enjoying each other’s company. See her smiling and laughing at him in a way that was once reserved exclusively for you. See her touch him in that affectionate way that used to lead to a long, passionate kiss shared only between lovers who knew each other well.

All of that, all shattered in an instant.

But if you truly love someone, you’ll want him or her to be happy, regardless if it’s with you or someone else. I never thought of myself as a noble person, but it turns out that I actually am. It will hurt to see them together but pain is part and parcel of life. We will learn from it, and sometimes it will change us.

Do not attempt to fight that change. I choose to believe that everything happens for a reason, and likewise, everybody comes into our lives for a reason. We have to be thankful for everybody that was, or still is in our lives because in the grand scheme of things, they all play or played a part in molding us into who we are destined to be.

“When things seem as if they’re falling apart, they might just be falling into place.”

Whether or not she’s going to be a big part of my life in the future, I really do wish them all the best. She deserves to find true love and have her fears and wounds be smoothened by someone who’ll take the time to understand, console and love her with all his heart.

I hope he won’t make the same mistake I made.

And if he breaks your heart, I’ll be there to pick up the pieces and make you whole again.  

I promised to always be there for you, and that’s what I’m going to do.  

I’m a fool, aren’t I?

-sigh-